Overnight the roses in my backyard bloomed gorgeous, hot pink flowers.
Overnight my little girl decided she was big enough to climb out of her crib and walk downstairs.
"Good Morning, Mommy," she said.
Overnight I went from running 5 miles at a 9:40 pace ...
to running 3 miles at a 7:20 pace and the other two at an 8:20 pace.
Wayne is not doing well. The side effects of his chemo leave him very weak,
sick, and tired. He doesn't like to talk.
Not sure how much he even hears me say when I try talking to him.
I wish this would all go away overnight.
Most of the time, I feel like I can handle everything.
But, not so overnight, I feel like I am slowly losing a grip on most everything.
Cancer, I think, does this to a family. Things are fine one day.
Then, overnight they are not. Even if nothing has changed.
I haven't really shared the rawness I am feeling lately; I hope it doesn't freak you all out.
The other night I was watching Caeden sleep. He was in a really deep sleep ... and he had beads of sweat on his face and neck. His mouth was open a little bit, and he was clutching his favorite blanket tightly. I watched him sleep for a long time. Just taking him in.
Being so happy to sit and watch him. So peaceful.
So, I count my blessings and I pray a lot. I ask for wisdom and strength, mostly.
I also give thanks. Because no matter what, there is so much to be grateful for.
And I need to remember that when I feel like it is all out of my reach.
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